Pain – Loss of a loved one

I have been going through so much pain since the loss of my dad late last year and this week I have been reflecting on various kinds of pain that I have experienced in my life. Yesterday I was feeling some back pain, caused by some physical exercises that I have done. Last evening, I had to rub my back with ointment to relieve this pain and I am hoping the pain goes away soon. I am sure as I take enough rest this coming weekend the pain will go away. These are physical pains which can be caused by the activities we have engaged ourselves to and they come and go.

There are other kinds of pain – such as emotional pain coupled with emotional labor. You try laboring so hard emotionally to have a smile on your face when emotionally you are feeling so much pain. These kinds of pain can be caused by many things we might be going through in life. The pain caused by a loss of a loved one can be very unbearable and it is very difficult to lose a loving parent. Parents are very special to us. For me personally, my parents have been very special to me and they loved me so much. They did many things for me from the time I was born.

The Bible says in, “2 Corinthians 12:14b-15 After all, children should not have to save up for their parents, but parents for their children.  So I will very gladly spend for you everything I have and expend myself as well. If I love you more, will you love me less?” As I have been reflecting on these words of Paul to the Corinthians, I remember all the many good things my father did for me and for us all in the family. As I was growing up he was saving up for us his children, he wished and wanted to see us have and live a better life. He always went an extra mile to ensure we had what we didn’t have. He gave us himself as a dear loving father. He loved his children very much and he loved his wife, my mother.  For sure he did very gladly spend for us everything he had and gave himself as well. I know I could ask my father for any sort of help and he was willing to help me and do it for me. Even when I moved to Canada he really continued supporting me very much even with my music ministry. There are very many things that my father was doing for me that I cannot be able to do for myself and this makes me miss him and think a lot about him but I have been praying and trusting God to give me peace and relieve that pain.

When I think about parents biblically, I recall Moses’ parents. The Bible says in; “Hebrews 11:23  By faith Moses’ parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king’s edict.” When the king plotted to kill all the Jewish boys, Moses’ parents hid him from harm. This reminds me about my dad, he would not have watched any of his children face harm or to see us suffer, he was very proactive. He was always there for us and protected us and provided for us with so much love and care.

As I reflect about the pain that I have been going through since the loss of my dad, I came across the below verses as I was reading the Bible and I pray that the Lord heals me and my family and others who may be going through similar situations of loss.

 Job 16:6
“Yet if I speak, my pain is not relieved; and if I refrain, it does not go away.”

Psalm 69:29
“But as for me, afflicted and in pain— may your salvation, God, protect me.”

Revelation 21:4
“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”

I pray that God will help me to have hope and faith that one day I shall see my dad.  My prayer has been to continue with the good works my dad was doing and to shed forth God’s light – my light will burn and shine by God’s grace.

My dad’s light lives on!